This is a question that’s hotly debated in the eating disorder community. Is it possible to be “recovered,” or will we always consider ourselves “in recovery”?
I won’t pretend to be an expert, but I’m going to give you my take. I believe full recovery IS possible – possibly for everyone, but at least for almost everyone. Am I there yet? No, but I envision full recovery happening for me. There was a time when I couldn’t imagine ANY recovery, much less full recovery – we’ve all been there, and we all know that feeling of utter hopelessness and despair. But that hopeless feeling doesn’t convey truth – it is merely your natural response to your eating disorder’s nasty voice in your head. But I think you can eradicate ED’s voice for good. There will come a time when ED has to accept defeat and realize he is no longer needed or wanted. Don’t get me wrong – ED fights HARD to stay with you, torturing your thoughts. And there are many weak versions of recovery out there that don’t eliminate ED but merely quiet him down or change him into other forms.
So, what is full recovery, you ask? Simply put, it is normal eating. It is eating to fuel your body, most of the time, listening to its needs, but also being HUMAN and occasionally not listening to your body; it is seeking comfort outside of food, weight, calories, and control; it is getting back to basics – the way we were all born, in harmony with our bodies and our minds. This is the future I see for us – indeed, this is the reality that many recovered people are living right NOW. But how do we get there? Well, that will be the topic of a future blog post … OK, make that MANY future blog posts, because there isn’t one simply and easy answer. The truth is, the recovery process is long, hard and complex, but it is worth it. YOU are worth it!